So confused...

I am so confused right now! My head is spinning out of control. I feel like I'm not myself these days and it's kinda scary. Everything I do feels wrong and everything seems to set me off whether its crying or getting angry. And of course I retract at that point and hide away in my bubble! I'm trying so hard to be the best wife, mom, and friend! I guess I just wish I could do everything perfectly but I can't. and I'll have to come to terms with that. No the house isn't always clean and I know I really could do better in that department but with kids running around and just being mentally drained I physically can't. I'm not in the right mind state. So with all the drama(which I don't wanna get into right now) this past week and pretty much losing my best friend I think I'm ready for a change. It's hard when your so close with someone for so long and things are gone in an instant. Yes we still put on a brave face and smile but we both know it will never be the same. yes I'm sad and yes I'm devistated but what more can I do! So with all that bein said I think we might move back to Texas. It's not definate yet because there are so many things that need to happen first. Have to find Jonathan a job! That's first and foremost! So yea. I'm just scared to once again not only pick up my life but my kids lives, the only one they have ever known & move cross country. The only thing I think keeping me here was my parent and manda but in the end I need to grow up and start thinkin like an adult. We would be much happier there. All of our family and most of our friends are there! It's not like we're moving somewhere we don't know anyone! I just don't know. Like I said my mind is racing as you probably can tell and I am just going to shut up now! Good night!

2 new albums on Facebook! Here you go Mandi!!!

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150749962885554.715607.502400553&l=9317c33ac9&type=1

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150692787975554.696991.502400553&l=334077a220&type=1

♥ 4th of July ♥

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150692787975554.696991.502400553&l=334077a220

Covey's 1st Birthday!

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150579784945554.669530.502400553&l=4cdc7d1862

My little soccer star!

Matthew finished up his last day of soccer this past wednesday. Mom came out and watched him and he loved it. Spent most of the time standing around but oh well. I dont think we'll do soccer again til he is a bit older if he still wants to do it. But i got some cute pics and thats all that really matters right?! lol & you can see more in my facebook album :D

Scentsy!

Here is April's Warmer! I love it. So cute, I've got it warming in my living room. Reminds me of Spring time!

FINALLY!

Matthew being the rockstar he is playing soccer!!!

My Beautiful baby boy!! 11 months old!! ♥♥♥

I finally got my blog to work. It turns out it wasnt my blog but when i updated internet explorer it stopped working. ANYWAYS So far this month has been crazy. I've had 2 photoshoots so far this month. A family shoot and a boudoir shoot :D Super excited about those. And I've also become a Scentsy Consultant. My Consultant kit should be here tomorrow and I'll be able to start going. I've gotten 1 party on the calendar and 3 more in the works which makes me beyond excited! It'll feel good to be able to contribute in some way to the income. Even if it is a little bit here and there its still something. And Scentsy is amazing!!!!!! I absolutely love it for sure. I've got 2 warmers going in my house now. One full size one in my living room and a plug in that I have put in the boys room. I've got another one on order, a plug in that will go in my room. But my house smells absolutely fantastic! I'm excited that i'll get a scentsy buddy in my starter kit as well. I want to see how the boys like it. I really want to get one for Coveys birthday next month. I'll go ahead and post the link to my Scentsy page so you can check it out PLEASE!!!! http://meagantharpe.scentsy.us/

Speaking of which its so hard to believe that my baby is going to be 1 in less than a month! CRAZINESS! Blows my mind. I've got to start planning his party and figuring out what to buy a 1 year old who doesnt need anymore toys or clothes. Think i'll just get him the scentsy buddy and let matthew pick him something out and be done with it. Next month is gonna be jammed packed as well. On top of Covingtons birthday, we have 3 other parties to go to. And Mother's day & My 23rd birthday!!!!!! I'm definately going out for that!

Ok i've got you all caught up. Here is the link for aprils photos but there arent that many for some reason but i'll be uploading more with all of the upcoming playdates and easter egg hunts!!!! http://www.facebook.com/album.php?fbid=10150476550265554&id=502400553&aid=636756&l=ea78d5814a

March 2011

Well its been full of sickness which i'm glad we're finally over!!!! And new beginning. LOVE the new house. :D

Here is my facebook album of the march pics so far ;)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=626411&id=502400553&l=2093cc38d2

Coveys Picture Board

I finally finished Covington's Board. I had Matthews up in the living room at the other house along with all of the other pictures of big bug and i felt bad. So I finally got around to making Cov's board this morning. Now they each have one for their room. Even though I need to make another one for matthew with updated pics! I LOVE making these things. Anything to do with pictures lol. I would cover every wall in the house with them hehe. I know in the picture that the bottom corners are cut off but i'm only so tall ;)

My New House!!!

I am in LOVE with my new house & the fact that i can even say house instead of townhome or duplex!!!! It feels amazing not to have to park in a parking spot rather than a driveway or live in a complex rather than a neighborhood! Its so much bigger than what we're used to and it feels good to have so much more space. I've found its easier to keep it clean this way cuz everything isnt piled on top of each other. So I took a few pics for ya so you can see it. I did the panaramic view so you can get the full effect ;)

My new kitchen table ♥♥

View of the kitchen/Dining room

Part of the living room

Excuse the kids lol couldnt tear them away from the tv long enough to take the pic!
Here's the panoramic view

The boys room. Messy I know!

The playroom. Even though its organized it still looks messy!!!! Jonathans drumset is in there and he will NOT let me move it out of there. GRRR.....not happy about that. Seems to be an ongoing battle here in this house & I'm not winning.